Update on Fuckbuddy


Date: April 20th, 2015 11:55 PM
Author: AZNgirl w Holocaust Tat Honoring BJC BF's Bubbe

recall she always went out and got blackout drunk w her friends before coming home. a few weeks ago, she showed me a text message from her friend saying that she was so drunk that she was grinding with some nowig co-worker that they call hate, which she didnt even remember. of course, to her, it's nbd because "nothing happened." this was after i'd got on her case about letting guys buy her drinks at bars, which she said is nbd bc she doesn't do anything with them. and after she allowed an ex to buy her lunch and theatre tickets, which she said was nbd bc she didnt do anything with him and just used him for free shit.

i wanted to find out if she was being faithful to our "exclusivity," and i figured i'd come out and ask her by laying a subtle trap. i said something in passing like, "i just want to make sure, have we been exclusive the entire time since you've said you've been exclusive." there was a pause and she said "i went out on two first dates, but i hated both of the guys and nothing happened and i didnt do anything."

i went into full depo mode, and questioned her about it. her story was that her slut homewrecking cousin set her up with one guy, and the other guy is some guy she met in the elevator of her building. she was in full defensive / rationalization mode and not even acknowledging that what she did was wrong, and said jezelel-esque shit like, "how would i know if i wanted to be exclusive unless i tested it out to see how i felt about dating other people.

(i'm not sure if she's being honest and fully disclosing everything and this is all that happened, or if this is just the tip of the iceberg. on one hand, she's not a good liar -- especially when confronted -- and is perfectly open about her shitty selfish behavior because she thinks there's nothing wrong with it and loves to rationalize it. on the other hand, she could have been majorly cucking me.)

she didnt even think it was a big deal and didnt expect me to get MAF, but i laid right into her and told her she's a shitty dishonest person and i can never trust her and i can never be with her, and that's it. i told her that exclusivity is exclusivity, and even if it were just a couple first dates, her behavior is still shit, and i'll never be able to trust her again, especially given her attempts to justify her behavior to me and knowing that she cheated on her 3+ year ex AND RATIONALIZED IT and sees nothing wrong with her actions towards him.

the worst part was really that she went back and forth between rationalizing her behavior and apologizing and crying and saying she's sorry and cares so much about me and thinks we have a future and doesnt want it to end and wants to make it up to me. i just went off on her about what a shitty person she is, and didnt look back and didnt hesitate.

this was all over the phone. 20 minutes later, i sent her a nasty email saying, basically "you may rationalize things not working out and say that it wasn't meant to be and it wasn't going to work out long term anyway, but no matter what, you'll always be a selfish cheater for the rest of your life." and then i blocked her on fb.

it's been 3-4 weeks. i'm totally fucking over her. i barely even think about her. i actually feel better about having her toxic personality out of my life. as a total codependent, i'm genuinely shocked i got over her this quickly.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2859776&forum_id=2#27727937)